I don't want to make decision

Before this I make everything by my own decision....

My life is by my own choose...

But,every decision I make wouldn't be perfect...

It's have a piece of mistake....

When every decision I make become very annoying...

Then,I want my best friend to make the decision for me...

Now,she gone...leave me...

Now,I realise that I have to make my decision again...

It's because every decision should have a piece of imperfect...

So,I cannot fix the imperfect and I think no one could fix it....

So,now,I think the imperfect should be there,in every decision

Because it what it should stay...

Everyone have their own trouble...

The different between everyone is how they show their trouble or hide it...

I want to hide all of my imperfect...

But I wish someone will appreciate my imperfection....in one day....

I want to dedicate song "kisah Dongeng"for myself...

I wait everyday for it and will never stop wait ....

the troubles

the troubl;es matter keep stunning on my heart...

I really don't know whAT should I do....

I think I just have to go on with my life...

When I think the past again I feel very regretful...

I just let the time gone...Even I want to say I do not say because of my shy....

Now,I can't go back and make the time happen again...

If I can make the time happen again...I will say to you what inside of my heart....

It is very ashame when the girl say the word I l**e you...

But I will use my all strength to say oit to you....

It better than waiting for you so many years...

I have feel how much pain keep waiting for you...

But,now What can I do?I think it just too late...

I have to keep my life go on...

I want to dedicate to you this song because I think it just sing our situation...

"Di Saat aku mulai mencintaimu"

You want to know why?

Because In the past you show me your l**e but I just give you ignorance...

I don't know what is l**e....

When you are not here and too many year pass by...

Now I know my h*a*t l**e you....

I think it's too late....

Of course you cannot keep your l**e just for me....

But it's not your fault if you cannot keep your l**e just for me....

Because it's destiny....

Everyday I try to accept it...

And now I can accept it...

I just want you not come again in my life and make me this way again...

If you want to go...go forever....

It's better....