To fear at my own mistakes....

Is it true that I could fear at my own mistakes?

I don't sure for that...

I suppose to always be strong....

However or whatever happen....

But now,for this moment,for this mistakes...

I feel fear of that...

I have to make sure I brave enough to accept my own mistakes...

It is the only choice...

If not,I will go on with my miserable life...

Why everyone have their own reason to make me feel very weak?

I think they must think for many question of my weakness...

So,what I suppose to do is make every answer of my own strength...

Everyone see my weakness...

So,who will see my strength?if not me....

I am me....

you can create every answer....

But I will not give up to create their answer....

Everthing does happen....

I will never change my past....

But I can change today and tomorrow....

You will never make me down without my permission....

I will never give anyone even a chance to make me fall.....

I stood up with my own leg...

Even you push me down I will also stand with my own leg...

I will never fall or use your leg.....

you can think everything about me....

but,you don't know me....

I know myself...

thanks for the good and bad advise....

How to make a choice....

when two choice come at the same time....

So,what is the best choice.....

When both of the choice have the benefit and disadvantage.....

Sometimes I made the wrong decision that I think it will effect my life....

But,I wrong.....

The false decision made me become more merched....

It make me become a person who is not fear with failure....

Sometimes I also make the correct decision...

But sometimes it make me wanted to happen again all the situation of the correct decision...

But,when time passed,it can't be payed....

What can I do is just do the correction for this day...

make yesterday as a memory and lesson...

and think tomorrow for next decision....

Accept what we get....

I am me

You can't be me....

I am myself...

I also can't be you because this is my real life....

We have to be ourself....

I am still love my life even too many mistakes,troubles and sadness happen in my life...

Get along the life even too many bad things I can't forget it...

That the only choice....

I am not perfect at all....

Everything happen because of reason...

I don't care if I fail by being myself...

but,I care enough if  I'm win in somebody self....

I don't know why everyone cannot accept someone thatkind to them...

But they can accept someone that have been bad enough to them...

Are they blind?

I also don't understand why they follow their badmood even there have a person that try to make the happiness day for them... ..Are they can't appreciate everything that they have today??

Everything will go....

And one day their eyes will open and they can look to the things that they have miss....

The thing will never come back once again for them...

It just one chances that we forget to appreciate....

I just hope their eyes will be threaten after blindness one day....

my heart full

I don't need someone like you okay....

You just something that bother my life...

How could I give trust to someone who already I know that the someone that do not have any loyal...?

Of coarse I will not trust someone like you....

You think you are everything...

But I am very sure that you just nothing okay!!!

To lie to someone is just to fool someone...

But you wrong enough because you just fool yourself with your acting...

I think that you can be a good actor okay....

My heart is full enough...

I am very sure that I forget to keep some space in my heart for you....

You will never get any inch of space  in my heart

 I will not let it happen...

You can go now!!!

I don't care at all...

You can't give me any reason to make you stay...

So,the choice is just go away!!!

You will never make me to change my heart...

.

It's so hard...

It always be harder when everyone try to turn me to their favourite character....

I know i'm not perfect...

Do you think do you perfect?

So,that you try to change me up...

Seriously,I have think to change you too...

But I do not do that because you are you....

I want to be me also because I'm me...

If I change my character....

So,who will be me?if not myself....

I love me...

I love myself...

I'll accept what I am... 

Stop it....!!

Stop talking about me in my back...

I seriously care when it happen...

I have my own life...

Hope you all will take care of your life...

I hate it so much when you make my life tied....

You make my heart like want to burst....

Let me free as the bird flying in the sky...

You can tell me what I did wrong....

But,actually I will always care about my wrong...

But,you also turn away my life...

I just want to me....

life must go on

The life must go on even I have make so many mistake to my decision.

It doesn't mean the end...

It just mean everything just start....

I have to make an effort to make sure I decide the right decision for next time....

To solve the problem is by following the path that lead...or just cross the other path....

I love the way I am....and I don't care if thousand people hate my way....

Because I'm happy with my way than follow the other way that make other satisfied....

If you want to know who I am...

Just accept what am I...

That's my way and you should follow your own way okay...

If you feel jealous so think it properly....

I'm not perfect,you not perfect and we not perfect okay...

Accept what you have before you lose what you have okay....

I love everyone but mostly I love myself.....

If you want me to take care of myself,you should think it one more time because I love myself and I will take care myself for sure okay....

Learn to accept everything...

.

you never felt

you never felt what I felt....

So shut up and keep your word....

Every single word you speak is a doubt...

very big doubt....

Believing you is like believing a doubt...

I will not believing you because I don't want to believing doubt....

Take a mirror and look at yourself....

heart blocker

I have to lock my heart to make sure no one can enter it....

They enter my heart just want to make my trouble become more and broke my heart...

Life have to going on...

blocking heart doesn't mean forever....

It just have to wait for someone that really true to get into my heart...

blocking,locking,closing my heart....

I don't want to make decision

Before this I make everything by my own decision....

My life is by my own choose...

But,every decision I make wouldn't be perfect...

It's have a piece of mistake....

When every decision I make become very annoying...

Then,I want my best friend to make the decision for me...

Now,she gone...leave me...

Now,I realise that I have to make my decision again...

It's because every decision should have a piece of imperfect...

So,I cannot fix the imperfect and I think no one could fix it....

So,now,I think the imperfect should be there,in every decision

Because it what it should stay...

Everyone have their own trouble...

The different between everyone is how they show their trouble or hide it...

I want to hide all of my imperfect...

But I wish someone will appreciate my imperfection....in one day....

I want to dedicate song "kisah Dongeng"for myself...

I wait everyday for it and will never stop wait ....

the troubles

the troubl;es matter keep stunning on my heart...

I really don't know whAT should I do....

I think I just have to go on with my life...

When I think the past again I feel very regretful...

I just let the time gone...Even I want to say I do not say because of my shy....

Now,I can't go back and make the time happen again...

If I can make the time happen again...I will say to you what inside of my heart....

It is very ashame when the girl say the word I l**e you...

But I will use my all strength to say oit to you....

It better than waiting for you so many years...

I have feel how much pain keep waiting for you...

But,now What can I do?I think it just too late...

I have to keep my life go on...

I want to dedicate to you this song because I think it just sing our situation...

"Di Saat aku mulai mencintaimu"

You want to know why?

Because In the past you show me your l**e but I just give you ignorance...

I don't know what is l**e....

When you are not here and too many year pass by...

Now I know my h*a*t l**e you....

I think it's too late....

Of course you cannot keep your l**e just for me....

But it's not your fault if you cannot keep your l**e just for me....

Because it's destiny....

Everyday I try to accept it...

And now I can accept it...

I just want you not come again in my life and make me this way again...

If you want to go...go forever....

It's better....