Now I realize

Now I realize that some people can stay in my heart but not in my life....

It look so hard to forget the people who create a very strong memory in my mind...

If one day I have lost my mind...I do not want to forget one thing....

Not the star,school,ambition or anything....

I just want to remember the moment you create for me...

I can learn again and again to make ambition,to the school learning,and so many things...

But I can flash back and make you create again the moment...

It won't happen...

the memory is in my heart 4 eva....

the rules of life that I have learn

1.If I do not go after what I want,I'll never have it....

2.If I do not ask,the answer will always be no...

3.If I do not step forward,I will always be in the same place...

4.Anyone can make me happy by doing something special.But only someone can make me happy without doing anything....

Life is sometimes be very miserable...but what I know is life must go on....

Broken Heart

What you will feel if your heart have been broken more than 5 times?

You will smile?

You will happy or you will scare of yourself...?

first time my heart is broken it's okay mean that is just a small matter...

But when it has been broken more than 5 times...

I have to still learn how to hope?

Or make sure that all my hope is gone already....?

I don't know what to do actually...

I will wait for the chance....

Sometimes to do it to the other people is a very wrong answer....

I don't want to do it like that....

But sometimes it will be the only choice....

All of you can see smile on my face...

But all of you don't know what I feel inside...

It is very2 worst...

And I sure you don't want to feel it...

Better all of you don't know the pain than know and try to feel the pain...

Sometimes the silent people keep 100 secret and when they smile it keeps 1000 secret...

I can fix again my heart when it have been broken but I'm sure that it cannot be perfect like the first time...

Time to change

I think I have gone too far away from my purpose of life....

What I need is come back to the beginning of my purpose...

I think I have sleep too much...

And now it's time to wake up of all my ilusion dream that not give me anything...

I have to work hard for everything...

Yes,of course I like to day dreaming....

but I want to work hard to cover all my dream to come true....

I think it's time to change all about me right now....!

my dream

Not all dream comes true....

But,I believe that every hope can be true if we struggle to get it...

Nothing easy to get...

What I know that I have to struggling to get the dream...

I want my dream comes true...

But not all....

Because sometimes our dream can make problem to us...

Accept everything because it's the best for us....

hopes come

Sometimes I just have to make some people we love go....

Not because I never care about them...

I care more than they know...

But sometimes letting go i the only option to do...

I let them go but not go from my heart...

They will always be there...

Sometimes I want to make them go from my heart because it always make my emotion unstable..

but,I can't let them go from my heart...'

I don't know why....

At last,I find out that maybe it should be in my heart if it can't be gone....

The destiny will make we meet again not today but the other day...

We same or not it doesn't a matter...

At last we meet again...that's the matter....

I want to be with who need me

I only want to be with who need me...

I will help them as much as I could...

Fix their problem,make them learn lesson of life and make them happy...

I will be with them until they start not need me...

Then,in that situation I have to leave them just like the other people...

I will go to people who need me...

Why I have to be sad when someone unneed me?

Because they are the other one who need me more...

better be alone...

better be with no one than be with the wrong one...

I think that's right...

I want to be alone....

That's what I try to find....

Be with true one or be with no one...

I want to be with true one not wrong one....

ready to fight problem

I want to be ready to fight problem and not like before...

I run from the problem and the problem chase me...

Now,it's time for me to fight the problem even how big the problem are...

I will fight the problem but not all sometimes I just need to fix it to be okay...

SO,I will be ready NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lose bestfriend

I don't know why I have to lose my best friend...

I have to lose every bestfriend because it is my destiny...

What can I do...

I just have to go on with my life....

I am a human,nothing in the world can be forever...

Go on with the life is just the only way...

So,that what I will have to decide...

But,I lose them all but not the memory...

It is enough for me to remember it...

So,that's the only way to live in this situation for me...

Why I have to forget the memory just because I don't want to be sad....

I have to keep it in my mind just the way it should be...

Not lose it...even it is so pain to remember....

If I can't forget the memory,I think it should be there....in my mind....

I know what you did,but I just want the truth come from your mouth

I know it...

I hate the most of the liar...

I know the truth but I want it surely come out from your mouth...

I do not understand why you lie to me?

But,at least I want to know the truth from you...

You keep lying at me like i'm so stupid to know it...

I try to be patient but I'm a human...

At the end I will become mad to you also...

Don,t try to keep lie from me...

Sorry ,I'm quiet but not stupid...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to change my trust to the people!

I want to only trust the one who can see these three things:-

1.Sorrow behind my smile....

2.love behind my anger....

3.Meaning behind my smile...

-I don't trust easily.so,when I tell you that I trust you please don't make me regret it.....

I need to be strong....

I don't want to be strong....but I need to be strong because it's the only choice I have...

I know I'm not strong enough and weak...

But,I have to force myself in this situation...

Too many problems to solve...

I help the other to solve their problems but I caught in my problems too...

Help the others even I have much bigger problem to settle....

Sometimes I feel like what I do is always wrong....

So,I try to fix it but I don't know it works or not...

But I trust myself heavily than the others...

because it my self......

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you just the same

I think you are different from other...

but I wrong because you just the same as other...

I think all the person want to leave me...

I think you are so happy now...

I hope you are...

So,if you want to go...

yes,go!!!

I don't want to keep the person who can ruin my heart ok...

So,keep going with your life...

You go on with your life and I will go on with my life...

So simple...

So,I have nothing to care about you....

who are you?

You chase me when I run up....

Then when I chase you back you run...

So,what?

You don't know everything ok...

You sometimes can be my nightmare.....

But I try to change you into my sweet dream but I can't...

So,what I have to do with you?

I know what....

Our destiny will never be together...

So,leave me...

last day of school

I don't know how to say it...

so many student like when holiday...

But I don't know whether I like or not...

It is because....first:my bestfriend change up her school for next year...

second:I so fear to take pmr next year...

third:It will be so bore when just sit up in the house without doing anything....

So,Idon't know where to choose....

So,maybe let what had to happen and let the destiny....

I have to let myself to be brave every year...

beauty day gone without you

You make my day perfect even in the very bad situation...

If you not there my heart will always fear of everything..

When you were there I will fell that I have a very nice day...

Please don't go because without you I'm nothing...

You make me become everything....

You are one of the important person to complete my life...

If you want to go...yes of coz you can but please take my heart to follow every step you leave me...

TAke My hEarT to go with you...

I want always be with you

I want to stay with you...

You are like sunlight that can shine my day...

You also can be my diary that know everything about me...

Besides that you can be rhyme n I will be the song....

I have to be in a very worst day every day...

But,even tomorrow the sky will falling down I will always stay calm with you....

Because you are everything for me...

I don't need to tell you everyday that I l**e you because I believe you understand that...

The song of my l**e will never stop playing in your heart...

YOu are everything for me...

I brave not scare of you

you try to scare me with your word...

Believe me,I will never scare of you...

I will make you regret for the rest of your life...

I'm too determine to be defeat...

I'm to careful to be defeat..

You will never excellent with your plan because good vs bad...

good will always be the winner even you try so hard...

The one who never stop trying will be the winner...

I will be defend when you attack right now...

But when the time come you will be defend n I will be the one who attack

So better you be careful with me because I'm the dragon that hide my fire n you are the shark hide your teeth...

We cannot be together coz we are too much different..

I thinnk we are born to fight each other..

I hate you...

u just a bad dreaming..

U are a very bad/worst dream in my life...

I don't know why u always did something that will broke my heart into piece...

u say u love me....but I believe u never...

I think u had a plan..but I don't know what...

but I will take care of myself even u say"takecare"to me...

I know that I never respect people before...

but in secondary school I have try so hard to do it...

Yes,before this I never respect anyone except my family and old people....

but I respect the other than that just like a human...

You not respect me as a s***or but at least respect me as a humen...that's better...

I know I'm too nice to you...of course coz Sarah always remind me not to get mad...

but I have a fire in my heart I cold it with mytear in my heart but if it too much my tear could not stop the fire but will make the fire become bigger...

Then,you will know how crazy,mad,bad I will be....

Sorry,I don't like to get mad ....

If you want me to get mad...yes of course,I'm sure for that is not today or tomorrow but the other day...

I want to tell you if I get mad I will make you pay for that...

I'm nice in out but not inside...

I will make you pay for the rest of your life....

thx a lot because you make me more stronger to get mad with you...

I hate you.....

I care u,but you don't n never

I have something to talk to you but i'm afraid your heart will burn...

I don't want to say goodbye coz I don't want u to cry....

But you just speak anything that will broke my heart...I don't care about that but I hope u care...but you're not even care...

You always speak lie but I can accept but if I lir to you you just want to say goodbye to me for sure....

So,you always say I don't care about you....

You think so?you wrong for surely you are the only person that do not understand about that...

SO LEAVE ME IF YOU THINK YOU ARE SO CARE ABOUT ME!!!!

You lie to me

I hate so many things in the world and I love everything in the world...

But,I seriously hate a lie..

Coz it make me just like an idiot girl....

Sometimes that also will make me feel unuseful...

Please don't lie to me if u l**e me...

If u l**e someone u will never do something that will hurt them...

So,lie can crash my heart....so do it....I  know u not even care about me....

GO AWAY IF U JUST WANT TO BREAK MY HEART!!!!

you never know heart....

You always say sorry then you repeat again and again your mistake..What is the sorry for??

You keep repeating asking me again and again that what I want....I answer that I will never tell you just try to think with your mind....but you still asking the same question....

I said you have change...you asking again and again what had you change...I said I will never answer I want you to think....but you keep repeating asking me the same question....

You think I'm mad with you because another person....

but truly not the other person that make me hate you but yourself.......

The one that make me all the bad feeeling is you JUST YOU

SO,THINK WHAT YOU CAN CHANGE BETTER THAN TRY TO AVOID ANOTHER PEOPLE!!!

you make me like a wall..

I'm waiting for you to speak to me...then,you just go on simply....

It's still okay....Then,You just go not even looking at me....

I feel like a wall that stand beside you...

When,you meet me..then,you just talk a few  words then you talk to another person....

I feel so lonely....

I ask you that you L**E me then you say yes,of course...

Everytime I ask you just answer as the same....

Then,I ask you to proove it....

You don't know how to proove it because you actually not L**E me just want to play with my fe***ng

You ask from me what I want to proove....then,I answer that there are million answer just pick one....

But D****A can't answer any one of of the million answer coz you not speak the truth....

You just keep on lying at me......

Why you do that???

you think I'm so kind and you can do that....

Pls don't make me like this....

Until one day I will do something that will make you know I'm not weak enough to be play by anybody.....

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You kill my heart

You always say I L**E you to me but I know that is not come through your heart....

It justthrough your mouth .....

How do I believe on the person eho always make my heart die....

You make my eyes cry n my mouth shut...

I don't want my eyes cry for you....but my heart always cry for you.....

You do not know how much it pain you just know that I'm always happy.....

You make me hate you!!!!!!

But you should never know about this....